My Bambino and Life

So I have never felt so incredibly useless as I did Friday. I took Evan to a speech therapy consultation and the hold up this book and ask about a billion questions like "show me the doll, which one is blue, where are the shoes, which block is on the box". Well what we found out is that he is speaking/comprehending on a two year to two and a half year level. I was seriously bawling in the office- I was perfectly aware my child was behind, just not that far. I was very ready to be told that there were a billion options to help him and that I needed to call so many places and coordinate care and that everything would be ok. Well nope - not quite. See my insurance will cover the diagnostic test to see if he is at level, but will not cover any therapy for a delayed child. And to top it all off, the Speech Therapist - Kevin- mentions Autism and then focuses on getting Evan screened for it. I about died, not because I am afraid of what we may find out, or even that my child may be labeled for the rest of his life with something that still carries a horrible stigmastism, but rather because I asked Evans doctor about this in MARCH!!!!!! I was told to wait another six months. So I waited, but when I called the MD office in September I was told they would call me back in a week or so with the referral (eventually being speech and audiology testing) - Well the amazing staff called the wrong number, and didn't bother to look into the phone numbers at all and quit trying to get ahold of me. So it was another two weeks when I called back and they attempted to give me the third degree about keeping my number updated when I need to have a call returned. As you may guess that did not go over so well with me. Now I called the Doctor to get a referral to get an Autism check and they would like to wait for the written reports to come in and they will get back to me sometime next week. So I hang up - bawling again and decide I should call my insurance to see if there is a separate deductible for this kind of therapy (because kids you should always check with your INSURANCE!!!!) Glad I did - they dont cover it unless there is an accident or illness that took his speech away. I asked if they would cover it if we had an autism diagnosis and get this - THEY DONT COVER AUTISM --- The reason for this you ask???? BECAUSE THERE IS NO CURE!!!!!!!!! WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF AND WTF - (for those of you who dont know, that stands for Where is The Fax and I am still very angry) Really now, AIDS shouldnt be covered, My Bipolar Disorder shouldnt be covered - or really any mental illness, some Cancer shouldnt be covered - and your insurance really doesnt give a damn about you or anyone else.

So now we wait (and cry) some more...